| I have not posted in here in 3 years, but I will now. |
[Mar. 14th, 2010|04:45 am] |
I guess I am just looking for an outlet because I seem to have very up and down weeks it seems. I know everyone goes through this, but for me it seems awkward because I am always a very happy guy. I don't like the unknown. I hate the uncertain. I wish I could understand my life completely. I always seem to do whatever I feel right at that moment, if that means going out and drinking on a Monday night, even though I have an exam Tuesday morning, fuck it. I don't want to waste any kind of a good time while I am young. Also, why do I continue to find faltered relationships? I know I am on the wild side, but I have a good heart and always give my best to everything, yet it always gets taken for granted. I am starting to get sick of it, old people, meet new people, it doesn't ever matter. Maybe I am forever destined to be, "the just friends" guy. I hate it. I have so much love to give to someone if they would just want me. I never feel wanted and it sucks. |
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| Hah! |
[Nov. 16th, 2007|05:56 pm] |
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I am now back...kinda! |
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| This is my one angst ridden entry for the month |
[Nov. 2nd, 2006|04:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | music |
| | pissed off | ] |
What's with all these stupid people having sex? I've always wondered what they think gives them the right to reproduce and further dilute the gene pool. If your IQ is under 135, don't bother having kids because not only are they going to annoy me and anyone else with a clue, but nothing they think is ever going to matter. Why bother? China is regulating births, why can't America? Every time I go out and see some poor bastard do something incredibly stupid or I have to hear another "but I don't get it.." question during lecture in class, it just makes me wants to cut someone's balls off to spare the world. Eventually we're going to get to the point of no return, where the cripples, dolts and dumb fucks out number the perfect people, like myself. Since most people aren't sure if they should reproduce or not, I've put together a nice little guide for you. If you fit any of these categories, and this is not an exhaustive list, consider yourself unfit to reproduce and do the world a favor by jumping off a bridge.
# You're under 5'8: It's well known short people have anger complexes and so they are always pissed off. The last thing this world needs is more whiny cry baby pissed off mommas boys to blow up air planes, so if you're not of at least medium height go play on the freeway. Make sure you get hit, too.
# You're left handed: The world is diverse enough as it is, why add to it? No one cares if you're a "south paw" and no one wants to read your piss poor smeared hand writing. Use your left hand for something useful, like strangling yourself, for example.
# You listen to Insane Clown Posse: This one should be obvious. Even if you manage to figure out how to use your dick between raving and dropping X, don't.
# You think Canada is great: Socialist bastards, what are you thinking? Oh wait, you WEREN'T thinking. I have an idea: instead of relying on everyone else to take care of you, why don't you get a real job and pay for your own shit? If anyone ever says they have "Socialist ideals" or think "Canada rocks" translate that to mean "I'm just a cheap skate ass wipe" and punch them in the face. Then laugh. As if being Socialist wasn't bad enough, they speak French. What the fuck? If you think Canada is awesome, save some oxygen and decorate the walls with whatever shit fills your head.
# You hate my website: If you hate my website you're obviously an inept, tree hugging hippie because anyone with a brain would agree my website is awesome and are therefore unfit to bear children.
# You have a low IQ: You're not helping anything, why are you here? What the world needs is more smart people to fix all the bullshit you lame asses introduced, and you're just going to breed more idiots. The smartest choice you'll ever make is to not have kids.
# Goths: Ohhhh wow, you're SATANS child? Guess what you pale piece of ass, no one cares. You spend so much time trying to look "cool" and make a statement and try to pass yourself off as being intellectual that you don't realize how stupid you look. Eat shit and die, go play with Satan.
There you have it. Using the simple guide I have so generously provided above you can help the world weed out the bad seeds and make it a better place for the rest of us. If you have any doubts you're not fit and should just end it now so no one worth being here has to deal with you or your kids. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|05:58 am] |
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I haven't gone to bed yet...this sucks. May as well try and stay awake, time for a walk to school. |
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| bleh... |
[Feb. 19th, 2006|08:47 pm] |
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| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Depeche Mode-The Things You Said | ] |
Depeche Mode
"The Things You Said"
I heard it from my friends
About the things you said
I heard it from my friends
About the things you said
But they know me better than that
They know me better than that
They know my weaknesses
I never tried to hide them
They know my weaknesses
I never denied them
I heard it from my friends
About the things you said
I heard it from my friends
About the things you said
How can a view become so twisted
How can a view become so twisted
They know my weaknesses
I never tried to hide them
They know my weaknesses
You tried them
I get so carried away
You brought me down to earth
I thought we had something precious
Now I know what it's worth
I heard it from my friends
About the things you said
I heard it from my friends
About the things you said
I've never felt so disappointed
Never felt so disappointed
They know my weaknesses
I never tried to hide them
They know my weaknesses
Thought that you liked them
They know me better than that |
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[Feb. 18th, 2006|11:09 pm] |
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| | Love You Out Loud-Rascal Flatts | ] |
Rascal Flatts
"Love You Out Loud"
I have always been a little shy
I've always been the quiet type till now
And I never let my feelings show
I never let anybody know
Just how much I was so deep in love
But now that you're in my arms
[Chorus]
I'm gonna stand on a rooftop, climb up a mountaintop
Baby, scream and shout
I wanna sing it on the radio, show it on a video
Baby, leave no doubt
I want the whole world to know just what I'm all about
I love to love you out loud
You keep bringing out the free in me
What you do to my heart just makes me melt
And I don't think I can resist
But I've never been one to kiss and tell
A love this true can't be subdued
So I'm gonna let out a yell
[Repeat Chorus]
[Bridge]
Baby, I want the whole world to see
Just how good your love looks on me
[Repeat Chorus]
Baby, I love to love you out loud
Yeah, I love to love you out loud |
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| Insomnia has set in... |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|11:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sound of the wind outside | ] |
I have been trying to sleep for over an hour now, but to no avail. I do not know what is wrong with me sometimes. Maybe it is that I fear dying when I sleep, or problems I have encountered throughout the day that I am subconsciously thinking about. Either way, a small update and some writing may help me settle in. Mandi and I just passed our 2 month day....I love you Mandi! That girl just makes me smile every time I see her or think about her. It is a good feeling that I had lost for such a long time, and now she has finally brought a real smile back into me. If you had not heard, I had gotten into a car accident over Christmas break. The insurance papers are still being filed and that sort of thing, but I have started to look at my options. I am looking for cars in these following categories...if anyone knows of anyone selling any one of these cars, please let me know ASAP.
1995-1998 Mitsubishi Eclipse(all models)
1995-1998 Eagle Talon TSI
1994-1997 Toyota Celica GT
1995-1998 Honda Civic
1994-1997 Honda Accord(V6 preferred)
1996-1999 Hyundai Tiburon(V6 preferred)
There are a select other few cars on the list...but they are rare and very hard to find. On another note, school is going very well for me so far in my senior year. I have a cumulative 3.89 GPA, and have been working 2 jobs this year so far. It seems like my life is always running in fast forward, but I like it fast paced. I just wish I could slow down sometimes and enjoy things that I may otherwise be missing. To all of my friends who have stuck by me over the years, I express my deepest gratitude. You guys have been here to share with me many laughs and hardships. I want to take time to thank the girl who I already know loves me to death, as I do her, 'nuff said, She knows that I love her with all of my heart and that I am always there for her. My Mom for supporting me in school and helping me with a college decision. My Dad for his encouraging support in racing and the ability to tell me that I can be the best if I believe in myself. He wishes deeply for me to get into full scale racing, something that Mom has been holding me back on for awhile. I would be lying to all of you if I said I was not scared to die suddenly in a freak accident, but I do think about things before I do them. I tend to think about things like this on a higher scale now that I have matured even more so than before. I would miss way too many people or things here and I know what a hardship I could put many people through.
This by now has to be my longest post on LJ ever in history for me, but I had a lot on my mind that I just wanted to express in an open view thought. ~~~Your responses are welcomed if there was a time that will be remembered forever with me. Anything that you will forever remember me for, I would be glad to see it.~~~
As Dane Cook would say..."Everyone leaves behind a legacy." Good night everyone |
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